I am not a fan of feeling helpless. I love my baby so much and all he wants is for me to pick him up...and I can't do it. He is looking up at me and sucking on his pacifier, upside down. Cutest thing ever! Alex has been doing a great job helping out with him, but his still wants and needs his mama.
I am also not a fan of surgery. But having four kids definitely took it's toll on my body. At least now my intestines are back where they are supposed to be and the silver dollar- sized hole in my abdominal wall has been sealed up, hopefully for good.
One thing I AM a fan of...or person, I should say, is Tim McGraw. My mom won tickets and I was supposed to go tonight. Unfortunately, it's not going to happen. As much my mind is saying "Yes," my body (and my wise husband), are saying, "No." I mean, shoot, my mom even offered to get me a wheelchair. But I wouldn't enjoy myself the way that "normal" me would. I can't scream and yell...just hurts too much!
My mom was able to sell my tickets to a mom and daughter who were incredibly excited to go...made me feel a little better since it wasn't me. Tonight I will settle for getting my dose of Tim by watching "Country Strong"...sad to admit that I haven't even seen it yet!
I am grateful that my situation is temporary, and one that my body will recover from. There are others who are not so fortunate. Thanks for listening to my vent. I know that part of my recovery is my attitude, and I am vowing to be positive and know that each day will get a little better.
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